zenbelly
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Post by zenbelly on Mar 4, 2017 23:37:46 GMT -5
Hello friends. I'm laying in bed thinking long and hard about my phobia. I'm trying to get to the root of it all. What makes us so horrified? Was it past v* experiences that were traumatic? Is it the fear of v* in public and embarrassing yourself? Is it the fear of never being able to stop v*? For me, I think the scariest part about it is that I never truly know when it will happen. Like I can't control when it begins and when it ends. Why is that so scary? Ugh. What is the scariest part about it for you? Do you even know? It's such a complicated phobia.
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Post by Jess44246 on Mar 5, 2017 3:38:53 GMT -5
This phobia is so complicated that I don't even know what the scariest part is! It's just so irrational that it's improssible to make sense of it all. All I know for me is that I am not more afraid of v* in public than alone. There was no traumatic v* event(s) that caused my phobia, it just sort of developed. It's been there for as long as I can remember. I am terrified of of v*ing. I don't know what it feels like and I know that it doesn't hurt, but it jut seems so scary to me when panic it making me irrational. Also, anything associated with v* is a threat. Even a v* scene in a movie can trigger a panic attack! I don't know why it is so threatening, but it just is. It's an irrational fear and therefore it will cause irrational behavior.
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Post by kirbear on Mar 5, 2017 4:58:09 GMT -5
I have no traumatic experience I can think of that had made me this way. I never used to be scared of v* in public but that part of the fear has developed over the past few months.
The main part I think is the not knowing when it will start or when it will end. I think that's why I was so calm during my pregnancy v* as it always started at the same time every day and after I certain time of day it stopped. While it carried on like that for the whole pregnancy I wasn't afraid of it because I knew when it would happen.
I know from past experience it is much better to v* than feel n* but I don't know why v* scares me so much.
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princessmoon
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Post by princessmoon on Mar 5, 2017 19:32:20 GMT -5
I think it has to do with embarrassing myself or feeling miserable. But like you said I also hate the lack of control about it. Not knowing when/IF it will happen, that's awful.
Also for some reason I'm scared that people won't like me anymore if I v*...ridiculous yeah but that scares me a lot too. Like people will think I'm "gross" if I v*.
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Post by drbloodylove on Mar 5, 2017 21:08:51 GMT -5
For me, it's mostly the very unpleasant feeling it induce and the uncontrollable aspect of it.
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gumdropper
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Post by gumdropper on Mar 5, 2017 21:52:17 GMT -5
I'm afraid because vomit comes through the mouth. If vomit came through its own orifice or something, I wouldn't be afraid.
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oliviaaxx
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Post by oliviaaxx on Mar 5, 2017 22:49:32 GMT -5
The uncertainty and feelings leading up to it. Just thinking about that makes me anxious :/
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Post by samimichelle08 on Mar 5, 2017 22:50:10 GMT -5
I don't like not being in control. The actual vomiting doesn't scare me. But the nausea and the not knowing when, worries me. But I'm even more afraid of v that is never ending. In 4th grade (I'm in my late 20s now) I had a pretty awful tummy bug. I was up all night. --but even that didn't cause my fear of v. I actually never even thought about how awful it was and still don't. But I went 10 years without v after that. The Monday that I v, I was n ALL weekend! I spent my entire Sunday in bed because the n was so bad ( I was out of town which made it worse too). When I came home from out of town, I thought I was feeling better so I ate a few crackers and went back to bed for the night. Early the next morning I woke up gagging which eventually turned to v twice. The v wasn't as traumatic for me as fhe nausea for two days prior and the suddenly waking up gagging. Even still, 10 years later, I haven't had anything happen as traumatic for me as that. I've v numerous times since too but that still gives me the worst anxiety. But it's a work in progress of getting better. One step at a time. Maybe I can train my brain to realize that the n isn't bad. And I'm sure every "normal" person becomes concerned after they v once that they won't stop v. I'm sure I'm not the first person on earth to be worried about that lol
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Post by Razzle on Mar 6, 2017 0:43:11 GMT -5
Definitely the lack of control as others have said. The unpredictability of it all, and the discomfort and knowing that it could happen again.
It's also terribly disgusting and like gumdropper said, I'm not a fan of the mode of transport. That fact that is it stomach to mouth, and it essentially backwards, is disturbing. The stuff in my stomach is meant to go only out the back door.
And nausea is just awful too, with the anticipation and wondering and what not. Just truly miserable really
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oscarriox
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Post by oscarriox on Mar 7, 2017 16:03:37 GMT -5
The lack of control and feeling like you can't breath, and also the build up to it
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Post by Koiz on Mar 20, 2017 0:32:48 GMT -5
All of it! No really though, I really hate that I don't know what will happen. I don't like the pain, the nausea, the gagging, and then the day of death afterwards (Last time I had a sv I literally didn't eat or drink for a full day and slept the whole time) and not being able to eat normally fro a while afterwards. I was pretty good at v the last time, but I only v twice. My sister v 13+ times, which I think is what I'm most afraid of.
Yeah, I think if I knew that I would v once at 3 am and that was it, I wouldn't be freaked out. I think it's the surprise that is the worst for me.
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Post by virginia on May 16, 2017 17:24:16 GMT -5
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sopherzzx
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Post by sopherzzx on Jun 24, 2017 0:14:35 GMT -5
This sounds disgusting. So possible **TW, but for me the worst part is if Im v*ing food. I HATE v*ing anything thats no completely liquid. I cant do the v*ing undigested or partially digested food. If that makes sense **TW OVER** But like most people here I dont like the feeling of not knowing when it will happen and the feeling of n* that builds up to it, and if itll happen multiple times. And if Im going to do it Id rather do it outside because putting your head into a toilet or tashcan makes it even worse. The actual v*ing scares me because you have no control and its so unpleasant to do.
Sadly I come close to v*ing almost daily because of my stomach issues.
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Lolo
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Post by Lolo on Jun 24, 2017 11:00:15 GMT -5
The last time I v* was about 11-12 years ago maybe (in 5th grade, I'm 22 now). I remember I didn't like being sick when I was a kid. It was miserable but I know it's that way for everyone. I never liked when anyone else was sick around me. In elementary school any time a kid v* in class I would get really shaky and nervous. Actually that even happened in preschool. I remember a kid v* after lunch and I freaked out and pretended I didn't feel good so my dad would come get me. So seeing other people get sick has always been a fear for me.
In the last few years I've been afraid of myself getting sick and honestly I think that's probably because it's been so long that now I don't remember what it's like at all and so it seems really scary. I think the worst part is the anticipation and then the worst part of v* (I think, I don't really know because I don't remember what it's like) is feeling n*. I don't get n*very often but when I do I really hate it.
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Post by Jess44246 on Jun 24, 2017 18:29:43 GMT -5
The last time I v* was about 11-12 years ago maybe (in 5th grade, I'm 22 now). I remember I didn't like being sick when I was a kid. It was miserable but I know it's that way for everyone. I never liked when anyone else was sick around me. In elementary school any time a kid v* in class I would get really shaky and nervous. Actually that even happened in preschool. I remember a kid v* after lunch and I freaked out and pretended I didn't feel good so my dad would come get me. So seeing other people get sick has always been a fear for me. In the last few years I've been afraid of myself getting sick and honestly I think that's probably because it's been so long that now I don't remember what it's like at all and so it seems really scary. I think the worst part is the anticipation and then the worst part of v* (I think, I don't really know because I don't remember what it's like) is feeling n*. I don't get n*very often but when I do I really hate it. My last v was in 5th grade and I don't remember it either. I do know that it was scary though! Whenever somebody would v in elementary school, it would make me anxious but I actually didn't run away from it. I would get shakey and panicky, but I just thought it was normal.
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