Post by Guest88 on Jan 28, 2017 10:38:46 GMT -5
I was around a lot of people in a big city yesterday on a work related business trip with my work colleagues. In my eyes as an emet, I had A LOT of exposure yesterday (in my eyes, but I know not really.) I ate a buffet and had to touch all the utensils that a bunch of others were touching, my only food choice option for lunch was at a busy food court where there were so many people (Lord knows how long the food has been sitting out?), and at dinner we all shared food at a seafood/steak-type place. I fear seafood because I always hear horror stories about how people get really ill with it. I also had a few drinks because it was both a celebratory day and because it would help ease my nerves while eating. That morning I had also had grafefruit juice prior to taking my medicine (which was okay'd by my doctor first).
So I am walking around this big city where there is a potential outbreak, close and around all these people, shaking hands while meeting a lot of people yesterday.... It was a great day but this phobia really took from it. So anyway I had quite a large dinner including the "safer" options for seafood, alcohol, and a large dessert. I got home and I felt fine albeit exhausted since it was an 18 hour day so I went right to bed at around 10:30pm.
I woke up at 12:30am this morning with severe n*. I immediately had a severe panic attack. I sucked on a ginger candy while my n* intensified and my stomach was already trying to heave on it's own. I prepared myself to v* just in case; pinned my hair back, made sure the trash barrel was still next to me and rolled over on my side to be able to just lean to the side if it were going to happen.... closed my eyes and tried to do some deep breathing although my heart was beating out of my chest. I clung to my pillow and kept it down for dear life. All these thoughts going on in my head: "This is my fault for not starving myself today. I should have not eaten and brought all my food... I shouldn't have shook that person's hand.... I should have made an excuse to not go out in the big city while Noro is at it's peak... Was it the alcohol, maybe even if I didn't drink too much??.... Is it food poisoning? I should have known better than to eat at a restaurant.... Maybe it will be just a one time thing for tonight and maybe it's not noro.... maybe the food just didn't agree with me and it'll only happen once..."
Just as I was finally beginning to accept it was going to happen and maybe, just maybe I could handle it and just let it go. I am n* all the time and I am tired of holding on sometimes. Not long after my n* eased up slightly... my stomach started hurting so I got up and (TMI possibly) had large a bowel movement (not d*, just normal). I grabbed some water and some preparations on my way back just in case the n* was going to come back as bad... it was better when I had gotten back to bed and I browsed the web on my phone to distract myself when it started to come back some. At that point I decided to turn off my phone and go to sleep so I could sleep through it. I woke up this morning feeling okay-ish, although I had intense sharp pains in my stomach and had a headache from not enough sleep. Since then I have had three more normal bowel movements this morning!
What is it that could be going on? I am nervous. Do you think I have food poisoning, have mild bug, maybe stress...? I'm worried because last time I have a sv* it came on gradually like this for days.
Thanks for reading. Your support from all of you here means so much to me.
So I am walking around this big city where there is a potential outbreak, close and around all these people, shaking hands while meeting a lot of people yesterday.... It was a great day but this phobia really took from it. So anyway I had quite a large dinner including the "safer" options for seafood, alcohol, and a large dessert. I got home and I felt fine albeit exhausted since it was an 18 hour day so I went right to bed at around 10:30pm.
I woke up at 12:30am this morning with severe n*. I immediately had a severe panic attack. I sucked on a ginger candy while my n* intensified and my stomach was already trying to heave on it's own. I prepared myself to v* just in case; pinned my hair back, made sure the trash barrel was still next to me and rolled over on my side to be able to just lean to the side if it were going to happen.... closed my eyes and tried to do some deep breathing although my heart was beating out of my chest. I clung to my pillow and kept it down for dear life. All these thoughts going on in my head: "This is my fault for not starving myself today. I should have not eaten and brought all my food... I shouldn't have shook that person's hand.... I should have made an excuse to not go out in the big city while Noro is at it's peak... Was it the alcohol, maybe even if I didn't drink too much??.... Is it food poisoning? I should have known better than to eat at a restaurant.... Maybe it will be just a one time thing for tonight and maybe it's not noro.... maybe the food just didn't agree with me and it'll only happen once..."
Just as I was finally beginning to accept it was going to happen and maybe, just maybe I could handle it and just let it go. I am n* all the time and I am tired of holding on sometimes. Not long after my n* eased up slightly... my stomach started hurting so I got up and (TMI possibly) had large a bowel movement (not d*, just normal). I grabbed some water and some preparations on my way back just in case the n* was going to come back as bad... it was better when I had gotten back to bed and I browsed the web on my phone to distract myself when it started to come back some. At that point I decided to turn off my phone and go to sleep so I could sleep through it. I woke up this morning feeling okay-ish, although I had intense sharp pains in my stomach and had a headache from not enough sleep. Since then I have had three more normal bowel movements this morning!
What is it that could be going on? I am nervous. Do you think I have food poisoning, have mild bug, maybe stress...? I'm worried because last time I have a sv* it came on gradually like this for days.
Thanks for reading. Your support from all of you here means so much to me.