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Post by theodora102 on Jul 21, 2017 12:30:38 GMT -5
so I've been doing great on the track to recovery. I'm on vacation, and I've been eating on the beach, with my hands! I had a fantastic sea food bucket that I also had to eat with my hands! And it's been great.
Anyway, we leave tomorrow and this morning I went to a new cafe and got some cake and a coffee. But the waitress put the fork directly on the table. I didn't want to make a scene since my mother already kind of got upset with her about the menu, so I just nibbled the cake.
I thought I'd be able to handle it. To convince myself that everyone else there eats like that, and no one else panics, and that it's really not THAT big of a deal. I even tried to eat with the tip of the fork that bends up so it didn't touch the table.
But we're traveling tomorrow and I know how long it takes for stomach flu to set in. Meaning, that I could spend a 12 hour car ride socks out of my mind. I think it wouldn't have bothered me if I wasn't traveling the next day. I've got a lot of stress in my personal life and I think it's coming out here.
And I'm so terrified I'm crying.
I really don't want to ruin the last day of my vacation by laying in bed and crying and waiting for the "inevitible" to set in. I mean! It's a freaking fork!! I wait all year for this vacation! I don't want a stupid fork to ruin my last day here!
Can I just get some words of reassurance or some comfort please?
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Post by jennalove1995 on Jul 21, 2017 22:21:00 GMT -5
The chances of you catching a sv* from that are slim to none. Try to think about all of the people that don't even wash their hands before eating hand held foods and wind up just fine. I had a friend once pick up a dropped fork at a restaurant and continued using it, and nothing happened to him! I know how hard it is to rationalize it with yourself, especially in a state of panic. I think this is really the worst part of the phobia sometimes, the inability to convince yourself that you will be okay is grueling and so frustrtating. You will be just fine, I guarantee it! Also, to help ease your mind a bit, I work in a restaurant and we always clean the tables with special sanitizer after anyone eats at that table, and I assume it would be the same anywhere else. Just try to relax and enjoy your vacation! đ
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Post by theodora102 on Jul 23, 2017 16:47:42 GMT -5
Thank you so much!! I know it seems silly, but it's so hard to remember things like this. But that story about your friend really helps! Sometimes it helps a lot to see how "normal" people react in a situation, at least for me. I'm able to judge how scared I should feel based on that, you know? It also helps to know a little more about how restaurants sanatize things. I keep reminding myself - no one working there wants you to be sick, it's terrible for business, they'll take all the necessary and logical precautions.
Thank you so much!! I really can't explain how much it helps:)
And, in case anyone's reading this later on, I didn't get sick!!! In fact, I didn't even panic (which can sometimes be worst than getting sick). I got a touch of d* but that's all on me because I fasted all day (never a good idea. It doesn't decrease chances of getting sick, and honestly, it makes it harder to think logically. Not a good idea) and then had a huge ice cream cone soooo I kind of should have seen that coming lol
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Post by Koiz on Jul 25, 2017 12:26:39 GMT -5
Haha I'm glad it ended up fine! I do that thing with the fasting and sweets all the time and somehow I still never learn...
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