Post by cararara on Jan 4, 2017 20:09:58 GMT -5
Hi, all. I'm an after school teacher for students at a daycare. As you may know, SVs are running rampant schools right now, which means it's basically an inevitability that at least one of the kids in my room will eventually catch the dreaded SV going around. The problem is that every single time someone complains of a stomach ache or not feeling well, my anxiety kicks into overdrive. I can barely breathe, I call up to the front desk for help but they aren't phobic like me so they typically say something like "let me know if they v* or anything" and leave it at that. All day, all I think about is one of these kids v* in my classroom. Every night, I'm so exhausted of holding in my anxiety that I sit in my room and cry. I just had a full blown anxiety attack because the feelings were so overwhelming. I know that I sound ridiculous right now. I know that if I talk to anyone at work about it, I will probably get laughed at. But I can't help how I feel... and I can't imagine another several months of the SV bug running around all over town and having to deal with this anxiety day in and day out, 5 days a week.
I have always worked with infants in the daycare system for this reason... because I feel more comfortable with them and the fact that they don't v* so much as spit. Unfortunately, this company I work for already has infant teachers, so I was placed in this department instead. I wish more than anything that I could go back to that. I don't want to quit my job AT ALL, but I also can't imagine another several months of this until SV season is over with. I am sobbing right now for no good reason aside from the fact that my anxiety has completely overwhelmed me. The thought of going to work again tomorrow is almost too much to stomach. Again, I know this sounds dramatic... I wish I was being dramatic, but my phobia is this intense. I don't know if I need some kind of anxiety meds, but I have been trying to avoid that at all costs. Unfortunately, it seems my phobia only gets worse as I age.
I have always worked with infants in the daycare system for this reason... because I feel more comfortable with them and the fact that they don't v* so much as spit. Unfortunately, this company I work for already has infant teachers, so I was placed in this department instead. I wish more than anything that I could go back to that. I don't want to quit my job AT ALL, but I also can't imagine another several months of this until SV season is over with. I am sobbing right now for no good reason aside from the fact that my anxiety has completely overwhelmed me. The thought of going to work again tomorrow is almost too much to stomach. Again, I know this sounds dramatic... I wish I was being dramatic, but my phobia is this intense. I don't know if I need some kind of anxiety meds, but I have been trying to avoid that at all costs. Unfortunately, it seems my phobia only gets worse as I age.