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Post by maddalouu on Mar 30, 2017 20:14:45 GMT -5
Hi guys! I have really been struggling lately.. not just with my emet but with my job that I hate as well as school. This week has been the worst though. I work at a children's rehab office and am a secretary so I am up front in my own little area. Usually, I think it is safe there because I am alone except for the occasional time a therapist has to copy something or give me information regarding scheduling. On Tuesday of this week, one of our physical therapists came in around 9am for her first patient and told us that she was exhausted because her son had been up all night and that he had d* since Saturday. Then she proceeds to tell us that she was up all night Saturday night as well and a lot of her family members were sick as well (they are often together). But I have been freaking out ever since. I feel like everyday I need to start a new countdown because I am so scared we somehow touched the same surface. I saw her for the last time today around 5:30 and I have been panicking ever since. It has technically been over 48 hours since the first time I was around her but I feel like I am not even close to being able to relaxing. So am I crazy for thinking this way? I just feel so low right now that really everything is causing me anxiety now and I hate it. It doesn't help that I am not happy at that job either and just feel so scared. I am sorry for the long post and ramble, I just need to vent. Any advice would be amazing
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Post by Jess44246 on Mar 31, 2017 0:28:37 GMT -5
The stress is causing you to take things worse than usual, and don't blame yourself for it! Tell yourself that you want catch it and you'll be fine! I'd recommend relaxing more to de-stress yourself. I'm sure you have something that works for you, which may include music, meditation, tea, light-hearted conversations, etc. Having all that stress is no good for you, and it's taking it's toll on you right now. It's all going to be okay! Just relax! I promise you'll feel better about everything!
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Post by maddalouu on Mar 31, 2017 8:07:13 GMT -5
I know. I feel like this stress is like taking over my body. I rarely get like this due to the type of job I do so i used to be around it a lot(I was at the urgent care). I just have a lot going on this weekend and am worried I will get sick. Ugh. This fear is the worst. I'm ready to just cancel all my plans
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Post by Jess44246 on Apr 1, 2017 0:27:52 GMT -5
It really is the worst! I've been in lows... deep, deep lows... and they're depressing and exhausting. All you can really do is push through them. Get away from the field you're in now and try out a different career path. It's not too late and nothing is set in stone. Do something that makes you happy! It'll be hard at first but you'll get there if you persevere! Doing something that makes you feel negative emotions directly effects your emetophobia. I think it's because the amygdala handles emotions - meaning that it is what overpowers your rational thought with anxiety and fear - if you want the scientific reason. In others words, feel good emotions and you will be in a better, more manageable place with your emetophobia. What do you think will make you happy? Do it! Soon! I believe in you
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 1, 2017 12:16:41 GMT -5
I have been trying to just relax and hang out with some friends. But homework has also been consuming my life, but it does get my mind off of everything. I'm still a little on edge from the possible exposure, it's been around 43 hours now so my emet mind kicks in around now. But I have been feeling a little bit better anxiety wise today.. just hoping it stays this way!! Thanks for the response. It helps to know I am now alone.
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Post by Jess44246 on Apr 1, 2017 14:51:19 GMT -5
We all have hard times. You are having one now, and that's okay. Every time I wanted to give up on life during a rough patch, I took what I love and pushed through until I came out in a better place.
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 1, 2017 21:27:34 GMT -5
I have definitely been trying to do that! I was having a good day until around 4pm I had kind of an odd bm which made me panic.. I started to have this pain in my lower left side (front and back). It is still there and it is around 10:30pm. I am starting get really scared and i am hoping that it is the anxiety making me feel n* and not the bug I was exposed too... I just don't know whats going on right now so naturally I am freaking out
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Post by Jess44246 on Apr 1, 2017 21:43:34 GMT -5
Yes, it is natural to freak out. I had a smaller panic attack today. It happens. Try to ignore the pain. Focus on other feelings in your body or don't think about your body at all. The pain should pass, and maybe some medicine could help it ebb. Let me know if it's there in the morning.
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 1, 2017 21:46:01 GMT -5
I am trying.. Watching some tv with my cats! Any thoughts on what I should try to take? I wasn't too sure since I don't know what the pain is. lol. I have an ice pack on it, but I am honestly puzzled at what it is. Thank you so much for you replies, they really help
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Post by Jess44246 on Apr 1, 2017 21:57:19 GMT -5
No idea what you could take! Maybe ibuprofen could help depending on what the pain is. If not, no harm done anyways. Yeah, watch tv with your kitties, that's a good idea
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 5, 2017 11:40:14 GMT -5
So I hate to bump this post but it's happening AGAIN. One of our other therapists was sick last night from what she says was food and is here today. I am shaking. It's my birthday and I was trying to have a good day but now I'm a mess. I know yesterday I touched papers and things that she had because we were working on her schedule. She said that last night she felt a little off but didn't think anything of it then woke up in the middle of the night v* only. She felt better this morning but was worried to eat because she didn't want to get sick again. She's been treating patients all morning here and I have been staying at my desk most of the day but have been talking to her a lot. I try to always keep some distance so I'm hoping it was enough. I am worried I've been touching things. I just cleaned off my whole desk and washed my hands again (I do often) but I'm freaking out. Any advice?!
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Post by ruhligv on Apr 5, 2017 20:11:53 GMT -5
Maddalou, the therapist most recently sick wasn't contagious yesterday prior to showing symptoms so you're safe there... and as far as today you've been washing your hands and you haven't been sharing drinks or snacks or phones with her; I'd say you're pretty safe! I know how freaked out you must feel, I get that way too! But remember it's not airborne and you've decontaminated any possible exposure areas. Keep it clean with extra hand washing for a while, you'll be alright!
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 5, 2017 20:41:26 GMT -5
Thank you! My mind just goes crazy when I am exposed. I am actually calling off for tomorrow due to some family issues so that's a sigh of relief. I'm just hoping I haven't already picked it up. I have been making sure to clean a lot in the office because we've had a couple patients come down with strep throat. I am hoping everything was enough today. It's crazy how our emet minds work sometimes. I really appreciate the reply!!
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Post by Jess44246 on Apr 5, 2017 21:13:53 GMT -5
Sorry you had to deal with worries of exposure on your b-day. On my last b-day I was having a minor panic attack for 1.5 hours while at an award ceremony (I was being awarded for an orchestra I played in after auditioning successfully) because there was a physical and mental special needs boy who kept making REALLY scary sounds as if he we're about to v*! Then I went out to eat and calm down afterwards and had to endure a conversation about drunks v*ing violently from the old ladies in the next booth. I was so upset that I wasn't paying attention and spilled water all over myself. Not a fun birthday! But after calming down at home I just told myself that I could have a better day soon to make up for it!
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Post by maddalouu on Apr 6, 2017 3:33:16 GMT -5
Ugh I've been so anxious because of it. I'm now laying awake in the middle of the night and I'm scared it's because I got it. I barely ate yesterday due to being so busy but I'm worried that this odd feeling it is. I feel like I need to go to the bathroom and tried, but couldn't. I kept having dreams about weird things and stuff going on right now so idk if that's why I woke up panicky or because of this weird feeling. I just hate this so much. I can't relax, I'm just convinced I have it or it's going to come
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